You know what's funny?

Is that, those people i call "friends" are not my friends. And all of a sudden, they tell me the needed space. And yeah, funny and depressing at the same time. Why? Because they're supposed to accept me for WHO I AM. And i guess they failed at that. And i realized it's not my loss. It's theirs. They just lost a friends who cares alot. And what's wrong with me is that i'm too nice, and i care a lot. I'm tired of pretending to be someone i'm not. I wanna be someone i want to be. I wanna be myself. And i'm sure someone will love me for who i really am. And i guess i dont need people like them. People who just leave me hanging. Yeah, i may have a few friends left. But one thing for sure, they're real.

"You dont have to change for people who dont appreciate you."
-trisha magen ortego chua.


PICTURES OF MY REAL FRIENDS <3

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Nasasabi niyo yan kasi di niyo nararamdaman yung nararamdaman ko. Nasasabi niyo yan kasi OKAY KAYO AKO HINDI. nasasabi niyo yan kasi NASASAKTAN AKO KAYO HINDI. Nasasabi niyo yan kasi wala kayong pakielam. Kung di niyo ko maintindihan,naiintindihan manahmik nalang kayo.

KASI NAMAN. PWEDE BANG AKO NALANG?

Eto lang ako oh. :| :( LASLAS PULSO KAIN BUBOG TALON 6TH FLOOR

But baby there you go again,there you go again making me love you;Just a dream

"I came back for you. I love you. I had to cry and force my mom to bring me back here. I cried so hard"

His words before i woke up. That dream i had last night was weird. I mean yeah he left the country to go to back to korea. Yeah we had a thing. Not a relationship but close to that. Mutual understanding. Why did he come back? Why was he the one i was dreaming about?

Self harm.

I dunno. It's just that the razor is the only one available when i need someone.

used to cut but then I stopped. I was really good for a few months, but lately I’ve felt like cutting again — and then tonight I actually did. Now what do I do?

That guy up there that loves me the same,Even though im a mess.

I've been very stressed and broken these past few weeks? Months? I dont know. I realized that i was far from my creator. He's the one that i'm supposed to call. But i didn't. I dont know why. Maybe because my problems took over me. Trust him. Only him. He has plans for you! <3

bestfriends? no. strangers.

"if she really wants to be your friend, she would've stayed.."  -Andrea. 



but no. you left. replaced me like it was my job. well thanks. but i realized that i don't need you. not in a million years. i'm not gonna regret this. but you are. and if you're reading this, Have a nice life. I DONT NEED YOU.

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i saw you walking along the hallway. my classroom a few steps away. i felt a Wave of anger flow through me. hatred. i was confused back then. it's been six months since i walked away. i haven't heard from you. i wished you talked to me. i miss you. Four months before your big day. i can't wait for you to get out and go to college. you're making my life harder. i hope you knew..everything. 

I'm Kinda new to Blogger.Because I usually Use TUMBLR.But it doesnt mean that i'll stop Blogging on tumblr because i have this already.Lol,Tumblr is still better.HAHA.